Always Call for Help!

Matai RedconOne A few nights ago I decided to take me life. I plugged a hose into my exhaust pipe and then ran it into my window and let the car run. Gun in my lap as I sat there reflecting about my life and how bad I felt it had all been. I sent one last text to my brother SoldierHard RedconOne and said bye. Not but a few minutes later..a neighbor runs and opens my doors and takes the house out. ALL DUE TO Celexa and Xanax. Please be careful when taking pills like those! We all have problems but looking at it now....it was a selfish thing of me to do. Soldier Hard took the pills my brother took the gun and and now I'm looking forward to help from a clinic that will start Monday. Thank you Angel Alexander , Michael Ndah and J William Pickett for finding me and staying by my side until help arrived. I've apparently affected my little brother by seeing my post and caused him to feel the same way so I apologize. Facebook therapy I swear! = ) Well, my 2nd attempt at it has not worked so I'm stuck here with all of you and looking forward to bugging you all for life! = )

Happy Birthday To Me!

Good Morning Fellow Laboring Sobriety Members! Well, I had an experience to share and nature found a way to make me remember not to drink while in the sun. Yes, I was at my birthday party in Tomales Bay enjoying myself having oysters with my guests and a few glasses of wine later and a beer, I guess I had too much to drink! My husband says I gave my flowers away, I don't remember doing that. I don't remember walking to my car either and thank God I wasn't driving. I also cried for 45 minutes because my grand daughter never made it to my party and it was her birthday too. Maybe it was a blessing after all so she didn't have to see her grammie like that. I don't think my son would have liked it either. I had a great time I think but feel I cheated myself out of some nice memories with some great friends for a few drinks. Also, I got really burned and didn't even know it and I'm still suffering and peeling and can barely wear clothes on my back. What a lesson. I will never forget that day and God made sure of it. I have done this only once or twice in my lifetime but still, I don't like that I did it at all. Why did the few glasses of wine hit me so hard? Not enough water, enough food, the sun? All of those things matter but what we forget is that when we drink we start off where we ended the last time. I feel like I messed up so I won't do it again. Even co-dependents can screw up in this area just like me. What I realize now is that drinking alcohol is not what I need anymore to take away the stress of the week..... Jesus and sobriety is.