Addiction has many phases;

Just because you've stopped abusing your "drug of choice" doesn't mean everything is going to miraculously get better. There is many steps to recovery; I needed to make amends to all those people that I had harmed and there were many. I also need to get right financially with all those creditors. Then I needed to try to fill my time with something useful rather than destructive. There is also that difficult task of cutting off anyone that reminds you of using, most of my old buddies thought it was just a phase. But remember, they will aways be patient to wait for you till your are weak and ready to get loaded again. A good support group is essential. A lot of churches have "CR" recovery groups.

I believe what saves me is trying to keep busy, I started school again to keep my mental status involved in something constructive, unfortunately I found that I had ADD, which may have been caused by excessive drug abuse. I am in somewhat of a fog again so I admit it's always a struggle. So I am always at risk of going back to that lifestyle. But I have come to far to continue that path of destruction.

May God help you find the correct remedy for your recovery;

Michael Angelo

Life evaluation;

I can remember the first time I used my drug of choice, it was great. I can remember a few years of actually having fun too; but then everything just kinda went on autopilot. The years just flew by, the money problems, the speeding tickets, the fights with the wife for being out for 2-3 days without so much as a phone call. Then I can remember the break-ups and the crying and all I could think about was doing more dope. How can a person with good morals be so cruel and insensitive? how could I have done that? Then you fast-forward 28 years later and I have nothing to show for all of that wasted time, nothing but awful memories of trying to catch-up, make rent, buy food, raise the kids, buy them clothes, car payments, Christmas times, just holding a job became difficult. There's no going back to fix it, there's nothing anyone can do. Now I suffer from bad health and debt to constantly remind myself of what happened. How could something have such a hold on me for so long without me knowing what was going on? That's why they call it an addiction; your mind takes over what the body craves. It's a difficult and every day struggle just to stay clean and out of that lifestyle. I guess I made it, it just doesn't feel like it yet. posted by; michaelangelo

Rods View

Life is a matter of Odds, but, Life don`t set the odd`s YOU DO---- depending on how you respond to life`s challenges... Read and search to find and capture good ideals. Then put them in a journal so you can go over & over them. Ideals can change your life, so study all your wishes and notes. Books and notes are very valuable. Repetition is the Mother of Skill...Starting NOW you can do the most remarkable things.! DISCIPLINE is the biggest step towards progress...Discipline all your disappointments because every let down affects all the rest of your performances..FEED your brain as you feed your body. Base your life on Worth....not cost. Study Nutrition because vitality plays an important part in life`s special moments of success.....Get you a game plan written and operate from it along with all the clues of success /knowledge you noted,observed and listened to or read. ACTION is next after learning. Putting your knowledge to work will change everything. Review your game plan but don`t try to beat the system. Do it right and don`t compromise with right.... Don`t be stubborn.........Next post "Basic Laws" By Rod Mullin

Always Call for Help!

Matai RedconOne A few nights ago I decided to take me life. I plugged a hose into my exhaust pipe and then ran it into my window and let the car run. Gun in my lap as I sat there reflecting about my life and how bad I felt it had all been. I sent one last text to my brother SoldierHard RedconOne and said bye. Not but a few minutes later..a neighbor runs and opens my doors and takes the house out. ALL DUE TO Celexa and Xanax. Please be careful when taking pills like those! We all have problems but looking at it now....it was a selfish thing of me to do. Soldier Hard took the pills my brother took the gun and and now I'm looking forward to help from a clinic that will start Monday. Thank you Angel Alexander , Michael Ndah and J William Pickett for finding me and staying by my side until help arrived. I've apparently affected my little brother by seeing my post and caused him to feel the same way so I apologize. Facebook therapy I swear! = ) Well, my 2nd attempt at it has not worked so I'm stuck here with all of you and looking forward to bugging you all for life! = )

Happy Birthday To Me!

Good Morning Fellow Laboring Sobriety Members! Well, I had an experience to share and nature found a way to make me remember not to drink while in the sun. Yes, I was at my birthday party in Tomales Bay enjoying myself having oysters with my guests and a few glasses of wine later and a beer, I guess I had too much to drink! My husband says I gave my flowers away, I don't remember doing that. I don't remember walking to my car either and thank God I wasn't driving. I also cried for 45 minutes because my grand daughter never made it to my party and it was her birthday too. Maybe it was a blessing after all so she didn't have to see her grammie like that. I don't think my son would have liked it either. I had a great time I think but feel I cheated myself out of some nice memories with some great friends for a few drinks. Also, I got really burned and didn't even know it and I'm still suffering and peeling and can barely wear clothes on my back. What a lesson. I will never forget that day and God made sure of it. I have done this only once or twice in my lifetime but still, I don't like that I did it at all. Why did the few glasses of wine hit me so hard? Not enough water, enough food, the sun? All of those things matter but what we forget is that when we drink we start off where we ended the last time. I feel like I messed up so I won't do it again. Even co-dependents can screw up in this area just like me. What I realize now is that drinking alcohol is not what I need anymore to take away the stress of the week..... Jesus and sobriety is.

Daily Inspiration

Quote of the Day "They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." – Andy Warhol

Be at Peace

Philippians 4:6-7 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.