Where am I today

There has been a lot that has happened in the years of sobriety vs. the years of using. Today I am in School attempting my Associates degree.  I say attempting because we never know what the future holds for us.  I know I am doing all I can to give myself the best odds to graduate, and that's all I can ask of myself.  But in the past, I would have never attempted anything like this. I would have resigned myself to; "it's too hard" or   "I just don't have the time", or "something bad will happen if I start School".

Now I know that nothing bad is going to happen if I start School. It's just going to take time, it's going to be hard, it's going to take effort on my part to ensure success.  I have learned that School is "Just like Life". If you want to succeed in life, we have to be willing to put adequate time into it to ensure success. Remember, success is relative. What I mean is; my meaning of success is going to be different than yours. Not better, not worse, just different. 

What I can relate and convey to any recovering addict/ alcoholic still suffering is; The investment that we make in ourselves, is the best investment that we can make towards our future happiness. I know for a fact that one of the things I would always say when I was coming down from a 5-day binge. "I just want to be happy" Today I can say I'm happy and I am somewhat proud of myself.  But by the same token, I know where I came from and it wouldn't take much to get me back in the life of addiction, Prison or Death.

Today, I choose Life and to move forward. I wish you the same.  God be with you on your journey to happiness.


Michael Angelo